perma gloom over

2007 World Championships

well its less than 2 weeks until the biggest cross race and i'm clear for take off. i'm going to the worlds and i'm pretty excited about it. i've waited a long time for this and i'm going to live it up full on. there is no way i'm making any predictions about the top picks either. and that is because after watching the way this season has unfolded, too many things can happen in a big race like this. i'm sure all the heavy hitters will have the odds but rather than name drop i will go watch it unfold with my own eyes. i've also decided to take my computer. i had originally planned on not taking it but after some thought i think it will be ok.

reading some posts from american and belgium based christine vadaros, it sounds like its going to be a post card moment course with plenty of belgiun mud on hand. it may even snow.

i think no matter what happens from here out and even after the race, every event for the rest of the year will be like this photo in Sven Nys's mind. Wellens lingering in the shadows.

so this friday will be a full 3 weeks i've spent without my beloved volkswagen. its the first problem i've ever had in 5 years. a small part and a stupid part. its still drivable but i can't defrost my windows. actually when i turn on the defrost it fogs up. pretty stupid. problem is the part lies behind my dash board and the dealership has to special order the part in from germany. so until the fucking thing gets here i have to drive this pile. over the past 2 weeks i found out why GM is going out of business. because they manufacturer cars like this. oh my. this thing sucks. chevy colbalt. i highly advise that knowone every spend hard earned money on transportation like this. take a bus, ride your damn bike or walk. unfortunately my career choice does not allow me such decisions in my daily grind.

in the eve when i get home its dark. i open the door to retreive my belongings. no light comes on to aid. i pull down the visor to pick things out of my teeth, no mirror. i go into kick back mode while driving, no arm rest. i guess for some this car would be a luxury and i must be spoiled with my german engeneering that has so conveinently put me out huge $ and into this american thing. oh well, the dealership has offered to pick up the tab with the rental and maybe when i get back from my trip it will be done.

today was the first day in what seems like years we had sunshine. wow does that make a big difference for me. i'm really having problems lately adapting to these winter months. dictionary def of cold nagging no sun depressing winters between october and march = southeast michigan. killing me. colorado has awesome snow for the resorts. big teams are in the southern states training with warm air in their faces. cross is going strong in belgium (belgiuns don't give a fuck about weather, they go out no matter what) very few die hard michganders will brave the cold months for fitness outdoors. i try to. i just don't want to try that hard. i want it to be easy motivation. i went for a run on sunday. ran the steps inside michigan stadium. i'm paying the price now. pain. rode the trainer for an hour today. sucks. i think its time to take a trip to the good land, eat some waffles and chocolate, drink some esspresso and hit the reset button.